What does one mean when they say “I’m looking to find myself”? What did I mean throughout my whole life saying the same damn thing?
As I look at myself in the mirror, counting the freckles along my face and twisting a finger through my ringlet curls. I’m right here. I’m right god damn here. What am I looking for? Am I not good enough, am I looking for someone better then myself? I’m fucking fantastic, what am I looking for?
“I’m looking for who I truly am” Am I not who I am now? I am, I always have been, I always will be. What am I looking for? I don’t believe in the future, I don’t believe that who I “truly am” exists. We are who we make ourselves not who we find. What am I looking for?
I’m right here. Acknowledge me. Ground yourself in me. Embrace me.
I’m here god damn, I am here.